Chapter 5 - Changes - cont'd

Sleep did not come for James that night, despite how hard she beckoned it. Instead, she paced. And she didn’t like pacing because it was just walking in circles.

She couldn’t get the voices in her head to stop. How could she have let herself get reduced to such ridiculous levels as she did tonight? Jealous of Kelly? That little, skinny bimbo who could bat her eyelashes and looked great in that unnaturally short skirt? But it seemed to be so much more than that. If she were a Star Wars geek, she would have had the thought that there was a disturbance in the force. Instead, she tried to chalk it up to just female competition.

And to further get under her skin, she was extremely disturbed to find how jealous she was of Kelly flirting with Guy. Of all things, jealous of Guy. After all, they were just friends. They had had that talk years ago, when she thought that they were more than just friends. But he made it clear that he just thought of her as a friend. James thought she had dealt with that and put those other feelings away. But lately, those feelings kept fighting to get out and tonight just made her want to jump Kelly, drag her to the ground and beat in her face with her cowboy boot. Kind of violent but it would have felt so good.

Finally tired of pacing in circles around the living room, James grabbed her long leather coat and hat and headed out into the edges of the night to see what trouble she could get into.